Monday, January 30, 2006

#550 Decades

On Death
I believe that you don't die of natural causes until you have finished your path (and I'm beginning to believe it for unnatural causes, too). There is a path you will take in this life, and when you come to the end of that path, you go on to the next. This doesn't mean predestination, you do still have free choice on absolutely everything. Sort of like a test you've signed up for. You can study hard and go in and work very hard on the essay questions and the multiple choice, or you can shrug and guess, or you can just put the pencil down and refuse to participate. You could have signed up for one part or all the parts. But at the end, the test is over when all the sections you chose time out, and whatever you have done, you get your score at the end. Not to say that life is a test, but like a test, certain subjects are shown to you, you have free will throughout, and you learn or you don't within the structure, as you choose. When the path/test is over, you leave, having learned or not. You go on to the next phase, which is determined by this one.

So don't cry for the deceased. They have simply transformed, graduated, moved on. Wave goodbye. Know that if you cry, you cry for yourself and the loved ones. If that person was an intersector to you, and you didn't take advantage of that intersection, if you chose for some reason, possibly even a good one, not to learn from them what you could when you could, then cry for yourself.

On Decades
(Only loosely related to the above....)
My life seems to have divided itself neatly and sharply into development decades.
  • 1944 to 1954 was confusion and loneliness.
  • 1954 to 1964 was physical pain.
  • 1964 to 1974 was emotional pain.
  • 1974 to 1984 was enormous emotional and psychological growth, the awakening.
  • 1984 to 1994 was stability and learning about, opening to, love.
  • 1994 to 2004 was love, loss, and the growth of strength.
I wonder what phase I'm in now?

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