Wednesday, March 14, 2018

5116 Stephen Hawking

Stephen Hawking is gone.  I am sad.  I guess I thought he could stop time.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

5115 Share this, please!

Saturday, February 17, 2018


I'm not involved in any social networks that could help to distribute this, but everyone needs to watch it.  Please, those few people who read this blog, please pass this on.  Twitter, FaceBook, whatever.  This young lady is amazing, and she says words that everyone needs to hear.



[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxD3o-9H1lY]
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Thursday, January 11, 2018

5114 A spot of good news

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

My primary care physician insisted that I had to see a dermatologist about the spots on my left shoulder.  I have two black raised thingies, near the neck and just above the collar bone.  They grew over the space of a year to about the size of the pink part of a fingernail, almost thirty years ago, and haven't changed an iota since then.  One is soft, one is hard and rough.  Both have a "neck", no apparent attachment below the surface.  Absolutely everyone who has ever seen them, even complete strangers, has expressed concern.

So, ok.  I'll get them checked.  (By the way, the chemo I had last year happens to be also used for skin cancer.)

The dermatologist looked at them.  The soft one is an angioma, a benign tumor of blood vessel tissue.  It never gets cancerous, and can be removed, but because they are usually full of blood, it would have to be cauterized to prevent excessive bleeding.  The rough one is seborrheic keratosis, a benign tumor of the outer skin layer.  It's easy to remove.  They rarely go cancerous, but we should watch for changes just in case.  Given how long I've had this thing with no change, it's probably not going to be a problem.

I asked him if they SHOULD be removed, and he asked me if they bothered me, and I said no, not at all, except for people bugging me about them all the time, and he said that in that case, shrug, no, neither needs removal.

I also showed him some spots on my face, both near the right whatchamacallit - the straight piece that goes from the side of my glasses to my ears - both tiny flat rough spots, one near the corner of my eye that's light brownish and one closer to my ear that's colorless.  Both have appeared within the past year and a half.  Again, they are both
seborrheic keratosis.  He asked if they bother me?  No, especially because there's a spot about an inch above the nose piece of my glasses that "goes that way" for a year or two every few years, and then it goes away.  (I kind of liked it because it looked like a Hindu bindi.)  Ok.  They can be removed, but certainly don't need to be.

You know, my PCP spoke highly of this guy, and now I'm pretty impressed, too.  Too many doctors would yell "Might be precancerous!  Must do a biopsy!" to protect themselves.   What the hell, it's no skin off their nose (sorry about that joke).  This guy apparently has confidence in his diagnoses.

By the way, if you look up images of  angiomas or seborrheic keratosis online, mine look nothing like those things.  The black spots on my shoulder are oval and well-shaped, separated that tiny bit from the base by a neck, so the surrounding skin is neat.  The only thing alarming about them is that they're black.  The spots on my face are flat and perfectly round (for now, anyway), smaller than an eraser head.  

Even though I hadn't been worried about any of it, I can't believe how much better I feel.  Maybe it's just because now when people point in horror, I can say, yes, they've been checked out, and they're ok (so get off my back) (and that includes you, Dr. Primary Care).  Sheesh!
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Monday, January 01, 2018

5113 I'm still here!

January 1, 2018

I haven't updated here since September.  Don't know exactly why, I guess because nothing's happening.  Read the previous entry, multiply by the number of posts I should have made, and that's about it.

I'm taking the Femara every day, and I hate it.  I always have had aches and pains all over (fibro), and this stuff makes more bone and joint pain, so for about two hours in the morning I move bent over like those ancient folks with the walkers.  I'm going through a second menopause.  My hair is starting to fall out again. 

I am so tired all the time.  I have no muscle tone anymore.  By afternoon I can stand straight and walk pretty well, and I think I look ok, but lately clerks are being so gentle with me, packing bags lightly, carrying things out to the car for me and so on, so I think maybe I actually must look pretty awful.  I don't mind.  I'm too tired and depressed to care.

I know what I need.  I need exercise.  I need to get out more.  I need to move more.  I need to start seriously working on recovering.  There's nothing else wrong with me, except that I have allowed the past year and a half to grind me down, and when I think about where I was physically before all this (before New Jersey got hold of me!), that's when I get depressed.  I just have to work a little harder to get back to where I was once.  At 73 it may not be easy, but it's durn well possible.

Well, that's all for now.  I have a zillion things to do (2017 financial stuff that has to be wrapped up, mostly), and it seems like everything takes twice as long now as it should.  But --- I'll try to get back into the blog habit.  It's the only way I can be sure what happened when....